kĩndũ kĩnini #16
(small thing): on trying again today
wa Ngamĩro, meaning of or from Ngamĩro. Ngamĩro, a gourd used to hold milk and my maternal great-grandmother's name. an ode to vessels and also my grandmother who was of - from Ngamĩro. this is a space for exploration, curation, na meciria makwa (and my thoughts). wa Ngamĩro is a monthly-ish newsletter.
I am alive today. I am grieving today. I am trying again today.
I have so much love in me for the land and the people. It breaks me to see the world as it is. It stretches my imagination to believe in what could be instead. As my neighbors are disappeared, caged, expelled, killed. I know I am no safer. I see my rights being restricted by fascists, never had them all to begin with.
I don’t have answers but I can show up, support, and respond. I will try again today because there is solidarity and care to be shared, community to be built. We can work through the difficulties and focus on struggling for collective global liberation. It is not easy work to fight for justice. I am no expert. I am but a practitioner of love and a deep believer of people power.
I am trying again today for free tomorrows. With community and ancestors at my back and so much and so many already stolen from us, how can I not struggle towards the warm glow of our freedom? How can I not feel the constant aches of loss and the crushing weight of interlocking systems of oppression?
I work to love in ways that challenge the status quo that is taking us out one by one. Day after day, trying again in the todays. because tomorrow is not promised to anyone. So, I work to wake up each day with gentleness to myself and a purpose to love in ways that lead towards endings and beginnings. I will try again today, now, here. I will share what I have and love towards liberation until my last breath.
Live Love Liberation
an (updated) wa Ngamĩro mixtape ⚡
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Newish POETRY THAT I WROTE TO KEEP ME, AND MAYBE YOU, GOING AND GROUNDED IN TERRIFYING AND VIOLENT TIMES:
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